ARGH.

So Willow Dene apparently does not want to keep me. Again, without warning - the teacher told the school's internship manager, and the manager contacted EUSA's internship placement manager, who broke the news to me today.

You know how things make me sad? This makes me sad.

You know how things don't make me mad? Well...

My issue with this is the complete lack of warning or feedback. Both times. The first time, things went okay, and then I got a message (same route as this time) while on the train ride home. The second time, the first day went well, the second day seemed good too, and then Thursday was a teacher-training thing - six hour seminar. And I find out on... Friday? That the teacher doesn't think that things are working out?

I can understand if things don't work. But if there are problems, then could people please tell me about them? So, you know, I can learn and improve? So that I gain from my experience in the internship?

But both the first time and the second time, I didn't even know there was a problem until after I had left. And even when I was notified, I didn't get to know much about what the problem was, due to not being told directly by the people who saw the problems.

Also - no second chances. After the teacher in the first classroom decided she didn't want me back, I didn't get a second chance to see if I could do anything about it. Same thing with the second time...

Is it really the case that I have been found so unacceptable during one day (or in the second case two days) that there is no reason to see how I might act later, that there is no value in letting me know exactly what went wrong, that I just need to be let go at a distance?

And yet despite being that bad, I got no indication while at the school. People asked me if I was going to be around for a while, everyone said "See you Monday!" etc.


Also - it's kind of pathetic that even if I work for free, nobody wants my help.

Feeling pretty shitty currently.